Realize.

they’ve been friends and only good friends for the most of it.
it had been a good platonic friendship of 3 years odd.
safe in this crazy world of breakups and loves.

would you believe?

the sky is not pretty

when you start to feel something is not right, you’d realize that everything else turns out to be utterly wrong and or displaced in an awful manner. i couldn’t find the right word/s to speak about how i feel this whole morning or afternoon and it’s a monday. i’m thinking if it is the common monday blues that kill the spirits. right down here in the place where i stand, i’m thinking about something else, a place faraway from here.

i have an altered mind that tells me where i should be right now. i should stop working. my mind’s turning me off with every little thing that i do. it sucks when you are not driven or pushed to a certain extent. motivation might be healthy and that’s how i eventually decipher when i’m losing the moment of cycle. could it be too much traveling year in and out of this small little island? i wonder.

as how it creates the many turnarounds of environment and surroundings, the sense of belonging feels more and more insignificant. i reckon i should travel less, perhaps it will make me feel more earthy. the touch of feeling the earth at the bottom of your feet is m0re than just being real. it identifies an existence of a being.

and today, i just don’t feel like talking to anyone.

to own more time for the self.

2012

i never really trust predicament or believe the existence of Dooms day.

how the majestic towers and tsunami killer waves swept the whole world right down to the core of the earth was the reason why i had to catch this movie. the unnerving tension that surfaced in visuals with the digital sound effects of submerging torrents and waves surely pays as good as a rollercoaster ride. there were so many things that i see in this movie apart from just seeing the world falling apart, as the movie was named.

humanity runs in the human blood of mankind. however when it comes to the edge of facing life and death, the selfishness of human beings surfaced and uglify the already damaged world.

faith is just about what we need in times when we are driven to a state of no return. for better or worse, we dive forward hoping to turn things around. even if the fact or reality tells that we could only be trying in vain.

to save someone is to sacrifice another. even though i am not a strong believer for religion of any sort but this definitely sound like a religious belief. having said that, you could clearly see how many has to die before survivors can be saved eventually.

and for this, i am so looking forward to the year 2012 right now.

3 more years to come.